I had a dream that something really strange happened to me and because of that R. came to see me, for the first time.
When he arrived, he seemed said too, we didn't say anything to each other, he hugged me and in his arms i felt safe and in comfort. His hug was so warm and it felt real.
He looked just like in the last picture he sent to me, he standing by his bike. Wearing glasses. He looked worried, even with his act of taking me in his arms, I felt like he cared about me, but love? I didn't feel it.
Before I sleep, in the bed, I think of him. Wishing he was there with me. Good night, sweet love, you live in my dreams.

Days ago I dreamt I met R. for a weekend, we were sooo in love, and I dodn't know why we ended up not seeing each other anymore. But that weekend gave me the best gift R. could ever give me. I got pregnant and I never told him. I didn't want to disturb his "real" life so I kept it for myself. Some years later, we met by accident, and he discovered everything. He wasn't mad at me, he had tears in his eyes.

I am so fucking crazy for this guy, when will I finally meet him? I need to stop dream abou this... I want to...

I have to register this, I AM SO HAPPY!!!

R. asked me if I would marry him!!!! Can you imagine that??? I could never wait for that!!! YES! Sure, I would, baby!!! But already are!!!
I think that was the most happy day in my life!!! Now remembering it, I smile, I feel good, I feel lucky!

But then, I understood what he meant... he wanted to keep his wife and keep me too... that was not so good, I want him 100%.

The radio at my office is often playing Ace of Base, All that she wants.
That's the music of my first time! :-/

I cannot describe the delight that it was to watch my favorite group from my early teenager's age on You Tube! 
If you are a woman in the early 30's you will certainly remember the New Kids On The Block. 
I could find tons of videos with them, clips, interviews and shows. If there was Internet 15 years ago, I'd be even more obsessed than I was at that time.
My favorite one was (is) Jordan and his unforgettable falsetto! He is still into music, but clearly without achieving a big success. His last cd, love songs, is very good.

I bought the new Backstreet Boys CD, it´s just great! I could like most of the tracks, except for the One in a Million, which I really didn't like. This song is sang basically by Howie and it sounds soooo Enrique Iglesias!  :/

Today was the last day working at the fish dept. This week was extremely better than the earlier, thanks to the illness of the little-german-boss. Working without pressure is much better. And a lot of more fun moments flourished between the 8 of us. And what a gang we were. 3 danish, 2 iranian, 1 iraqi, me and 1 thai. 
It was amazing how much I could identify myself with the iranian girls. We've even planned a short trip abroad to happen someday in the early future :) 
Pu-haaa